Mom and dad, I've grown up
"So what?
You're still a child in my eyes"
Well you see, I can understand your disbelief
because i've caused grief through my lies
My "whys",
My excuses,
My reasoning is useless,
How I've been spitting fiction since I was snot-nosed and toothless,
I've grown up tho,
Not because I blow dro,
I skip your thoughts on all the no-no's,
Not because I live my life quite so-so,
I've grown old,
not in digits but by your wisdom,
I've got your words intertwined within my system,
So thank you, through your guidance I understand,
In my choices, in my thoughts and actions,
that I am my own man

Something I've noticed as a teenager, in myself and in others, we want to be called grown-ups without the responsibilities. I've heard people say, "don't look at me, my parents raised me this way", as if to divert the blame. I might have said it once or twice myself. I think when it comes down to it, all the good things you achieve and all the negative things you encounter, the way you go about the situation is all on you and nobody else, homie. I think that's what makes a man, a man. Somebody who understands that it is your own responsibility to shape your life.

life happens so fast.

that is all.

-mike

As the new, up-and-coming generation, we don't look back on how the things have come to be. Who has influenced you to wear your sneakers, to break-dance, to be an artist, to be a music-head, to sing, to be a writer, and all of that? Some people could even care less. Everybody wants to be the most exclusive out there, the newest, the freshest, the most unique.. but there's only a few out there that actually bring something real to the table. What do I mean? You need to know your history. You can't say anything about you being "fresh" if you don't know your roots. If you don't know anything about your history and you think you're the hottest on the block, in actuality, you're a goof who hasn't studied their art. It's our responsibility to carry on what is being passed down to us.

Know your roots. Study your classics. Research. Learn. Get educated.

I just deleted everything. Didn't think twice. It was no big deal. I shouldn't even be blogging about it haha

that's not even what i'm smiling about either haha

Since everything has happened, I've gone through the shit-storm and I am finally feeling like I'm in the clear. Actually, I feel like I'm on top of my game. I've been working a lot. Just stacking my paper. I've made my friends and family a priority, especially the ones that I haven't spent much time with in the past. I've dedicated myself to breaking again and I'm planning to battle at the next jam. I'm also getting into the DJ thang pretty seriously. I've spent some late nights on the 1's and 2's. I've been writing & recording music and producing instrumentals for the next mix-tape (right due?). I've been playing guitar again too. Maybe even trying to sing on the side...? I won't say. I've been on top of the drawing thing. I've been sketching some designs for some new tees. Not gonna lie boys and girls, I've been pumping iron. I've been trying to draw out my tatty but I think I'm gonna leave that up to the pros. I'm planning on picking up some canvases and getting grimy with the paint too. Yenno, I might just be at my best right now or at least on my way to. Shit, the only way to go is up, right? I'm doing this for me, not you.

Just listen, for real. Peep the 90's dance stylo at 3:13 and 3:41

"Never tell anyone what you're thinking"

It's cool to see your family be there for each other in good times and even in bad. In this case, it was good times. Hanging in a chow line shit.

You're right, my hands got cold

Today was a different day, even though it started off the same like every morning of the last month. I've been waking up around 6:00 in the morning every day and I can never find a way to go back to sleep. I always wake up and look for my phone. No missed calls, no texts. Then, I end up staring outside my window. Everything looks just grayish blue. In those silent moments I just end up thinking about YKW, life and shit. My mind wanders. Kinda lame, huh? I think it's just cause everything looks so plain, I just get bummed out. 

Come on dude, get your shit together. You can do this. Just forget about everything. Two days of school left. Summer to look forward to. Life is going to be good, I promise. Everything is going to get better. Shit might suck right now, and it seems like it's not going to get any better, but it will. Keep your head up kid. Don't let this shit get you down. You're loved! Your whole family is there for you. Your homies have your back. Even deep down inside, she still does care. She said she'll be there, and she will. Just don't push her away. You're doing that right now man. Remember, you're strong. Don't focus on the negativity. That'll just make all of life negative. You've got it good man. You're going places. You have a future ahead of you. The past is in the past. Just remember that it made you who you are, and you are a good person. Somebody is going to love you right one day. You're a good man, a good brother, a good son, and a good friend. You deserve the world man. You've already accomplished so much on your own. You're not a regular cat. You've got so much potential. Bring back MEAN apparel. Keep breaking. Hit the turntables. You're going to be great one day. I know you're going to be famous. I swear, she's going to wish she stayed. You're a sweet, funny, smart guy. You're on the okay-looking side but that's fine. Just quit being a loser and man up. Don't blame yourself for what's happened. You loved her. You gave her everything you could. It doesn't mean that wasn't good enough. She just took you for granted. You are worth so much more than what she has to offer. Don't hurt yourself over the choices she's made. I swear, somebody is going to see all the good things you've got and is going to want to give you all the love they have to give. You're going to be with somebody who will never give up on you the way she did. One day soon, a beautiful girl is going to come along, see you for who you are and love you for it. If you really want her back, she needs a man, not some pussy shit lonely fag. You just keep convincing her that it was more and more of a right decision to bounce by being a little bitch! Live your life man. Somebody's going to see you for what you are one day. You do love her so you need to let her go. Let her be happy. She'll come back if it's right. She's just not worth it right now. You can't fight for love if it isn't there. You're going to find somebody who will love you unconditionally. Fuck, man up Mike. You can do it. Keep going. Chin up kid.

He broke bread with Jesus and lived alongside of him for years. He was a disciple, a brother, and a friend. Judas turned his back on Jesus, an innocent man. He made the conscious choice of turning over a homie for selfish cause. He knew what he wanted and knew what he had to do to get it.

Some of Jesus' last words were, "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do". Judas knew what he was doing.

I guess my question is, if he knew exactly what he was doing, should he still be forgiven?

Baby we were like flowers to water
No better yet, coke to a snorter, we were like
Martin and Gina, never let nothing come between us,
see baby we were like a dream, dream of a land far away, away,
had to go and throw it all away, I hope it was worth it,
through with the hurting, girl its for certain..

Baby its sad to say,
I know that it was you that made me feel this way,
never thought there'd be a day that I, I don't love you anymore,
Baby its a shame to see, that being without you ain't a thing to me,
never thought there'd come a day that I,
I don't love you anymore