Old Times Sake - Sweet Sable
Today was a different day, even though it started off the same like every morning of the last month. I've been waking up around 6:00 in the morning every day and I can never find a way to go back to sleep. I always wake up and look for my phone. No missed calls, no texts. Then, I end up staring outside my window. Everything looks just grayish blue. In those silent moments I just end up thinking about YKW, life and shit. My mind wanders. Kinda lame, huh? I think it's just cause everything looks so plain, I just get bummed out.
This morning was a Monday morning. I expected nothing. I have a 4-hour long class at 9AM and today, we had to work on this stupid hard project the entire time. I kept texting people, getting them to tell me that "everything is going to get better" (thanks homies). After a few hours of work, I ended up looking outside the window of the room. It wasn't gray-blue anymore. It was hella sunny and all the white people were playing hackie-sack outside. The class ended early, I got in my car, cranked Bone Thugs. Everything was feeling good. I threw up my West Coast gang-sign along 49th by myself. It was going to be a good day. Met up with the homies and we drove around. We were supposed to go to the beach and hang out with the girls. I thought things were finally looking up.
After a few hours of driving around, we end up at Harwood and Thurlow. Harwood is a residential street and Thurlow is a one-way busy street. As we were approaching Thurlow, we came up to a stop sign. Thurlow's packed, no cars are moving and it's rush hour. One of the drivers stuck in traffic was being nice and he gave me room to go through. He waved his hand so I went thinking nothing of it. I crossed in front of the car, not realizing there was two lanes of on-coming traffic, then bam. I went through the first lane, entered the second, and looked up through the passenger window. I didn't realize what was happening, all I heard was a crash. We got hit. Passenger-side. People were yelling and shit. It was like a nightmare.
Long story short, it seemed like life couldn't get any worse, I thought I couldn't make any more mistakes than i already have. I fuck up and put my friends in danger by causing a car crash. I am so thankful that you guys are okay. I don't know what I would do if anything happened to you two. We got hit by a Smart Car. If we got hit by an SUV or a van.. Damn. I am so sorry guys. I am an idiot for real. Stuff like that makes you appreciate what you've got. I don't eva eva eva wanna let go of the people who have stuck by my side.
So, shout outs to the people who have had my back whether in the last month, the last two years, since back in the day or my whole life (in no particular order at all) to Ma, Pops, Megan, Melissa, Jel, Jay Dubb, Fungus foot, 1010, Maying, Yvonne, Jirianne, Daniel, Genie, Mark, Mel, Jonathan, Janice, Donnel, Jivan, Mikey- Roc, Rhea, Mjay, Marvin, Nick, Pockets, Jace, Denise, Serjoe, Bryan, Aubs, Matt Yiu, JR, K-anne, Krees, Mikeyzee, Skwirrel, Joan, Arvi, Rich, Marlon, Mem, Encounter 49/50, Mme. Vernier, Mrs. Beck, Mr. Beliveau, Bro.Newms, Eddz, Tomi-Yayo, Alex, Charlie, Ferny, Kevin, Harrison, Cara, Jenny, Katrina, Kelsey, Nathan, my whole $iy clique, Amah, Akong, Lala, Lolo, Ninang, Emah, Lola Ding, Lola Aling, Aunties and Uncles, the Titas and Titos in the world... shit, i could go on. I tried to catch everybody but I might have missed some of you guys! I'm sorry but you are in my heart for real. My head just isn't thinking straight.
BUT word to God, I love each and every single one of you with every oz. inside me. You pushed me up when life was pulling me down. I've got you too. I only want my family and friends to be happy. Life is good when you've got people to ride alongside of you.
i don't know:( things will get better tho, for the both of us.
thank God you guys are okay!
It takes a GROWN man to not only see the light in the stress/tribulations but to always find balance in it. I'm proud to call you grown and to call you a homie of mine, Mike.
Kudos. You're one of the lucky ones! STAY UP.
Word. I don't know if it's the onion smell of my moms cooking, or your post that got me all teary eyed. haha. If I had known ahead of time I would've driven right in front of you on that road man. But I'm glad we're all okay. and things can only go up from here. Blessed.
i hope you're feeling okay from that day too. thank god for smart cars!!!!!
love fungus foot <3
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